use once and destroy

"when i say i love you i am not ashamed, nor will anyone ever come close to intimidating, persuading, minipulating, ect.. me into thinking otherwise. i wear you on my sleeve, i spread you out wide with the wingspan of a peacock. yet too often with the attention span of a bullet to the head. Its pathetic how the world looks apon a person with patience and a calm demener as the desired model citizen, yet theres something to be said about the abiltity to explain oneself with a tuned down, tune deaf tone. i am what you call slow, how i metaphrase from hyperactive to cement is for lack of better knife to the throat. uh, annoying, aggravating, confusing, as dense as cement. cement holds no minerals, you cant even find fools gold in it. its strictly man made, and in the classic mans world i parade you around proudly like the most pure commited ring bound to be on my finger. which will also hold no minerals."

Nature, Industry by mee

Hostages

The day turned into night and night brought another shitty day. My boyfriend and I sat on the porch smoking cigarettes; the honesty of dawn shining on our faces was overwhelming to us. My bare blue knees at dawn, praying for an ideal life, we knew that we might never stand tall. We talked about heaven when we were hell-bent. Wrapped up in solitude and repent. We were shooting for the moon, staring at the sun, hopped up on chemicals aiming with his dad’s gun. When we were young we never had any fun. I wrote my boyfriends name with an array of bullets in the sky, the one sky he always told me we could reach, when he taught me how to get so high. He didn’t want to give me a habit, but isn’t love about sharing lives after all. We had an identity in this place now here. Pierced our poison names in each other’s skin in a continuous attempt of ridding of the pain and disposing of sins. I let him have my last cigarette; I swallowed my pride. I gave him my standards when he gave me a sense of substance. exert by me